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"I write to discover what I know."
– Flannery O'Connor


Returning to Blind Love: Creation, Collapse, and the Call to Begin Again
After years of silence, I return to Blind Love—a novel born of visions, memory, and warning—guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

Lavavoth
Apr 239 min read


Into the Northern Wilds: A Journey of Aging, Spirit, and Sacred Land
A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and a spirit lover, Hans.

Lavavoth
Jun 5, 20244 min read


The Verboten Love Affair
As I process what it means to be married to a spirit, the term verboten culturally enslaves my relationship with Hans and deems it demonic.

Lavavoth
Nov 5, 20232 min read


A Journey Through Time: Lockerbie Bombing, Past Life Death in Germany, and Hans's Past Life Shadow
Nothing would prepare me for what I would endure when I found out about Pan Am 103 exploding over Lockerbie Scotland.

Lavavoth
Jul 28, 20219 min read


His Ghostly Presence in the Mirror: Using Creative Writing to Document Paranormal Encounters
If you are interested in writing about your paranormal experiences, consider using fiction as an option to disclose your story.

Lavavoth
Jul 3, 20218 min read


Never Let You Down
Do you remember all the sounds, when I found you by the lake, and how the water seemed to call your name?

Lavavoth
Jan 2, 20181 min read


The Race Dream and Hans
His desire for me to know his identity was apparent from the start, but I was not ready to confront his shadow.

Lavavoth
Nov 16, 20173 min read


Nocturnal Visitation: Ich sehe dich in der Ferne
Early this morning, around 3 or 4 am, ich sehe in der Ferne, I see you in the distance, hovering in the black void, smiling...

Lavavoth
Nov 14, 20172 min read


Preface to Blind Love: Fascism, Then & Now
This book has been years in the making, taking dozens of twists and turns that have mirrored moments in my current and past life.

Lavavoth
Sep 8, 20175 min read


Head Full of Stars (Unrequited Love Poem, Part 2)
Me, dressed in the finest intentions, glancing over, once, and then–the sky opened up. You were heavenly, frightfully sublime...

Lavavoth
Aug 29, 20172 min read


Blitzed Baby! Psychedelic Marines, Subterranean Dreams & the Heroin Epidemic
A personal reflection on heroin's allure, its devastation in Vermont, and the haunting contrast between youthful idealism and lived reality—woven through cultural memory, historical drug use in WWII, and a playful what-if imagining of soldiers on LSD instead of meth.

Lavavoth
Aug 4, 20174 min read


Battling Dyslexia: My Jumbled Brain, My “Careless” Grammatical Errors
Typing is akin to using an Enigma machine, especially if I over analyze the keyboard...

Lavavoth
Jul 11, 20173 min read


Latest Photo Acquisitions: GIs, Bombed-Out German Cities & Panzers
After being haunted by the Brandstätten images in December, I decided to purchase original photographs of WWII bombed out German cities.

Lavavoth
Jun 7, 20173 min read


Transforming a Kriegsmarine Sailor into a Goth with an Aphrodisiacal Mensur Scar
Lavavoth | Death Tarot Card | © 2018 First phase of digital illustration and collage. Note the lace cascading from his sailor hat—an...

Lavavoth
Jun 6, 20173 min read


Avoiding “The Night Porter” Trap (and Website Updates)
Although Blind Love is an edgy and provocative illustrated novel full of “Nazi heartthrobs,” it is actually about the resistance movement.

Lavavoth
Mar 27, 20173 min read


“It Was Great Fun!”: Antique Photo Collection, Hitler Youth Haircut & the Unbearable Thousand-Year Reign of Fascism
Connecting with the ghosts of soldiers—via artifacts, photographs, and past lives—to confront fascism, past and present.

Lavavoth
Dec 16, 20166 min read


From Prussia (and Beyond) with Love: Searching for Hans's Face in the Portraits of Others Leads to Unexpected Photo Collection
Collecting these photos was a spiritual and aesthetic quest to get as close to Hans's doppelgänger as possible.

Lavavoth
Dec 15, 20165 min read


'Magic': The Window Fan and My Spirit Friend
A persistent spirit moves objects, disrupts plans, and lingers despite cleansing rituals—bound by past lives, devotion, and the unexplained.

Lavavoth
Sep 26, 20109 min read


He intoxicates her: A Love Story Inspired by the Psyche & Eros Myth
Cupid is a dark angel, and he also reminds me of a dark superhero. He wears his heart on his sleeve, just like the artist.

Lavavoth
Aug 15, 20103 min read
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