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"I write to discover what I know."
– Flannery O'Connor


Using Poetry to Process a Documented Visitation Dream with my Deceased Beloved
A visitation dream with Hans is explored through poetry, dream documentation, and research on poetic inquiry.

Lavavoth
May 257 min read


The Evolution of Henning Brandt: Blind Love's Most Complicated Character
Henning Brandt. Hare Captain in the Goth Regime. Sex addict. Spectrophiliac. Out of all the characters in Blind Love, he remains the most developed and complicated.

Lavavoth
May 811 min read


Returning to Blind Love: Creation, Collapse, and the Call to Begin Again
After years of silence, I return to Blind Love, a novel born of visions, past lives, and the paranormal, guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

Lavavoth
Apr 23, 20259 min read


Into the Northern Wilds: A Journey of Aging, Spirit, and Sacred Land
A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and my spirit lover, Hans.

Lavavoth
Jun 5, 20244 min read


The Verboten Love Affair
As I process what it means to be married to a spirit, the term verboten culturally enslaves my relationship with Hans and deems it demonic.

Lavavoth
Nov 5, 20232 min read


A Bombing and a Past Life
Nothing could prepare me for what I would endure when I found out about Pan Am 103 exploding over Lockerbie Scotland.

Lavavoth
Jul 28, 20214 min read


His Ghostly Presence in the Mirror: Using Creative Writing to Document Paranormal Encounters
If you are interested in writing about your paranormal experiences, consider using fiction as an option to disclose your story.

Lavavoth
Jul 3, 20218 min read


Visitation Dreams: Rethinking Dream Language
Exploring visitation dreams, astral experiences, consciousness, and the limits of traditional dream language.

Lavavoth
Sep 10, 20203 min read


Never Let You Down
Do you remember all the sounds, when I found you by the lake, and how the water seemed to call your name?

Lavavoth
Jan 2, 20181 min read


The Race Dream and Hans
His desire for me to know his identity was apparent from the start, but I was not ready to confront his shadow.

Lavavoth
Nov 16, 20173 min read


Nocturnal Visitation: Ich sehe dich in der Ferne
Early this morning, around 3 or 4 am, ich sehe in der Ferne, I see you in the distance, hovering in the black void, smiling...

Lavavoth
Nov 14, 20172 min read


Preface to Blind Love: Fascism, Then & Now
This book has been years in the making, taking dozens of twists and turns that have mirrored moments in my current and past life.

Lavavoth
Sep 8, 20174 min read


Head Full of Stars (Unrequited Love Poem, Part 2)
Me, dressed in the finest intentions, glancing over, once, and then–the sky opened up. You were heavenly, frightfully sublime...

Lavavoth
Aug 29, 20172 min read


Blitzed Baby! Psychedelic Marines, Subterranean Dreams & the Heroin Epidemic
A personal reflection on heroin's allure, its devastation in Vermont, and the haunting contrast between youthful idealism and lived reality—woven through cultural memory, historical drug use in WWII, and a playful what-if imagining of soldiers on LSD instead of meth.

Lavavoth
Aug 4, 20175 min read


Abandoned Berlin: An Apocalyptic Dream
A surreal dream/nightmare account about a post-apocalyptic Berlin.

Lavavoth
Jul 19, 20171 min read


Ewiger Wald: The Roots of Ecofascism and My Love for the Real Eternal (Black) Forest
An exploration of Germany’s deforestation, forest history, and environmental contrasts with Vermont.

Lavavoth
Jul 12, 20174 min read


Neurodivergence: Battling Dyslexia
Typing is akin to using an Enigma machine, especially if I over analyze the keyboard...

Lavavoth
Jul 11, 20173 min read


Controlling the Uncontrollable: Potamophobia and the Writing Process
What was supposed to be a four-day weekend of editing my story, ended up being a basement flooding nightmare.

Lavavoth
Jul 7, 20175 min read


Latest Photo Acquisitions: GIs, Bombed-Out German Cities & Panzers
After being haunted by the Brandstätten images in December, I decided to purchase original photographs of WWII bombed out German cities.

Lavavoth
Jun 7, 20173 min read


Transforming a Kriegsmarine Sailor into a Goth with an Aphrodisiacal Mensur Scar
Lavavoth | Death Tarot Card | © 2018 First phase of digital illustration and collage. Note the lace cascading from his sailor hat, an essential element. All Goths are required to wear Valkyrie-procured lace on their uniforms to manifest auspiciousness in battle. More on the scar in a moment. © 2017 Lavavoth. Original photo from the artist’s private collection (Stuart Archive). Original photo before edits (Stuart Archive). Guided by Ghosts, Grounded by Inquiry My art-making pr

Lavavoth
Jun 6, 20173 min read
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