Over ten days, I kept returning to the same images while working through depression and conflict with Hans. Through Eros and Psyche, the work shifted into distance, misalignment, and the inability to reconcile who he had been with who he is now. Still, I stayed with it.

After years of silence, I return to Blind Love—a novel born of visions, memory, and warning—guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

Exploring spiritual ancestry, a past life, and the call of the land, this journey uncovers hidden truths as I prepare to leave Vermont.

A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

As I process what it means to be married to a spirit, the term verboten culturally enslaves my relationship with Hans and deems it demonic.

Nothing could prepare me for what I would endure when I found out about Pan Am 103 exploding over Lockerbie Scotland.

Sad song by Bob Moses. The entire album, Days Gone By, is a requiem for the Surfside collapse + for my past life collapse trauma.

His desire for me to know his identity was apparent from the start, but I was not ready to confront his shadow.

This book has been years in the making, taking dozens of twists and turns that have mirrored moments in my current and past life.

Typing is akin to using an Enigma machine, especially if I over analyze the keyboard...

Lavavoth | Death Tarot Card | © 2018 First phase of digital illustration and collage. Note the lace cascading from his sailor hat, an essential element. All Goths are required to wear Valkyrie-procured lace on their uniforms to manifest auspiciousness in battle. More on the scar in a moment. © 2017 Lavavoth. Original photo from the artist’s private collection (Stuart Archive). Original photo before edits (Stuart Archive). Guided by Ghosts, Grounded by Inquiry My art-making pr

Although Blind Love is an edgy and provocative illustrated novel full of “Nazi heartthrobs,” it is actually about the resistance movement.

The Erotic Years, 1940 – 1945 is a controversial picture book depicting trysts between Nazi soldiers and French women in occupied France.

So there I went, into self-induced anxiety, combing the internet for those kinds of websites that are riddled with doomsday predictions and conspiracy theories.

In Berlin, Germany, a visit to the Berlin Wall becomes an encounter with World War II soldiers moving through the field, appearing without warning.

In Berlin, Germany, the flak tower becomes a point of entry into a city where the past presses in and something unseen begins to surface.

Exploring the devastation of German air raids, and how the complexity of history’s shadows linger in a past life memory.

Connecting with the ghosts of Nazi Germany via photographs to understand fascism then and now.

Collecting antique photographs was a spiritual and aesthetic quest to get as close to Hans's doppelgänger as possible.