After years of silence, I return to Blind Love—a novel born of visions, memory, and warning—guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

Exploring spiritual ancestry, past life echoes, and the call of the land, this journey uncovers hidden truths as I prepare to leave Vermont.

A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and a spirit lover, Hans.

An intimate account of my connection with Hans, a ghostly fighter pilot, as I navigate love, trauma, and the echoes of shared past lives.

A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

As I process what it means to be married to a spirit, the term verboten culturally enslaves my relationship with Hans and deems it demonic.

Nothing would prepare me for what I would endure when I found out about Pan Am 103 exploding over Lockerbie Scotland.

Sad song by Bob Moses. The entire album, Days Gone By, is a requiem for the Surfside collapse + for my past life collapse trauma.

His desire for me to know his identity was apparent from the start, but I was not ready to confront his shadow.

Early this morning, around 3 or 4 am, ich sehe in der Ferne, I see you in the distance, hovering in the black void, smiling...

This book has been years in the making, taking dozens of twists and turns that have mirrored moments in my current and past life.

They have destroyed your beauty, your canopy that once enfolded me into your splendor.

A personal reflection on heroin's allure, its devastation in Vermont, and the haunting contrast between youthful idealism and lived reality—woven through cultural memory, historical drug use in WWII, and a playful what-if imagining of soldiers on LSD instead of meth.

Typing is akin to using an Enigma machine, especially if I over analyze the keyboard...

After being haunted by the Brandstätten images in December, I decided to purchase original photographs of WWII bombed out German cities.

Although Blind Love is an edgy and provocative illustrated novel full of “Nazi heartthrobs,” it is actually about the resistance movement.

The Erotic Years, 1940 – 1945 is a controversial picture book depicting trysts between Nazi soldiers and French women in occupied France.

She wondered out loud in German, ruminating on the president elect's asseverations that are as inauthentic and ridiculous as his toupee.

So there I went, into self-induced anxiety, combing the internet for those kinds of websites that are riddled with doomsday predictions and conspiracy theories.