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"I write to discover what I know."
– Flannery O'Connor


Returning to Blind Love: Creation, Collapse, and the Call to Begin Again
After years of silence, I return to Blind Love—a novel born of visions, memory, and warning—guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

Lavavoth
Apr 239 min read


Music as the Lingua Franca of the Dead
This post explores how Hans communicates with me through music.

Lavavoth
Apr 215 min read


Union Beyond Boundaries: Love, Sex, and Spirituality with a Subtle Being
Exploring love, intimacy, and union with a spirit husband, this post unveils a profound, transcendent journey beyond the physical realm.

Lavavoth
Sep 30, 20249 min read


Into the Woods: A Three-Act Journey of Transformation and Spirit Connection
A journey through love, transformation, and spirit connection with Hans, my guide, told in 3 acts of shedding, searching, and surrendering.

Lavavoth
Sep 25, 20243 min read


How Music, Lifestyle, and Film Shaped My Early Experiences of Sensing Hans
A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Lavavoth
Feb 18, 20247 min read


"River Phoenix" Astral + Precognitive Visitation October 31, 1993
Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

Lavavoth
Feb 14, 202413 min read


The Verboten Love Affair
As I process what it means to be married to a spirit, the term verboten culturally enslaves my relationship with Hans and deems it demonic.

Lavavoth
Nov 5, 20232 min read


A Journey Through Time: Lockerbie Bombing, Past Life Death in Germany, and Hans's Past Life Shadow
Nothing would prepare me for what I would endure when I found out about Pan Am 103 exploding over Lockerbie Scotland.

Lavavoth
Jul 28, 20219 min read


Writing on the Wall
Sad song by Bob Moses. The entire album, Days Gone By, is a requiem for the Surfside collapse + for my past life collapse trauma.

Lavavoth
Jul 4, 20211 min read


His Ghostly Presence in the Mirror: Using Creative Writing to Document Paranormal Encounters
If you are interested in writing about your paranormal experiences, consider using fiction as an option to disclose your story.

Lavavoth
Jul 3, 20218 min read


Meeting My Spirit Husband
Meeting my spirit husband did not unfold in a subtle and gentle way. The initial connection unfolded during a creative surge.

Lavavoth
Jan 8, 20204 min read


The Race Dream and Hans
His desire for me to know his identity was apparent from the start, but I was not ready to confront his shadow.

Lavavoth
Nov 16, 20173 min read


Nocturnal Visitation: Ich sehe dich in der Ferne
Early this morning, around 3 or 4 am, ich sehe in der Ferne, I see you in the distance, hovering in the black void, smiling...

Lavavoth
Nov 14, 20172 min read


Transforming a Kriegsmarine Sailor into a Goth with an Aphrodisiacal Mensur Scar
Lavavoth | Death Tarot Card | © 2018 First phase of digital illustration and collage. Note the lace cascading from his sailor hat—an...

Lavavoth
Jun 6, 20173 min read


Occupied Flesh: 1940 - 1945 The Erotic Years as a Mirror to My Spirit Union
The Erotic Years, 1940 – 1945 is a controversial picture book depicting trysts between Nazi soldiers and French women in occupied France.

Lavavoth
Feb 24, 20172 min read


Walking In: A Journey of Communion with Hans
Exploring the intimate and transformative experience of walk-ins with Hans, where trust, healing, & connection transcend the physical real.

Lavavoth
Aug 29, 20124 min read


Love Letters from WWII
These letters are intimate treasures between two people who give us a glimpse into their lives during an important time period.

Lavavoth
Aug 15, 20104 min read
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