A visitation dream with Hans is explored through poetry, dream documentation, and research on poetic inquiry.

Reflections on learning German, mortality, longing, art, and unfinished ambitions.

Henning Brandt. Hare Captain in the Goth Regime. Sex addict. Spectrophiliac. Out of all the characters in Blind Love, he remains the most developed and complicated.

Multiple EVPs from Hans, including ASMR sounds.

I watch your smoky fingers unspool, swirling in the air, spelling your arrival, the way only the dead know how

A gliding flight in Vermont becomes more when a series of small, insistent moments only later reveals their connection to a shocking event. Moving between lived experience and theory, the post traces how synchronicity and precognition unfold through time and creative response.

A visitation dream of flight, fear, and surrender gives way to a YouTube feed overtaken by cockpit footage and a vanished interview. The return of fighter jets pulls me back into questions of love, truth, and what remains unresolved.

After a dual diagnosis, I look back on intuition, loss, and a fractured friendship to understand how one painful reconnection may have given me more time.

Over ten days, I kept returning to the same images while working through depression and conflict with Hans. Through Eros and Psyche, the work shifted into distance, misalignment, and the inability to reconcile who he had been with who he is now. Still, I stayed with it.

During a ten-day drawing practice shaped by the myth of Eros and Psyche, I tried to draw Hans’s face for the first time in years. Each attempt forced a confrontation between devotion and verification. Making him visible risked shifting him from my unseen companion to the historical man he once was, revealing how the act of seeing can alter the bond itself.

After years of silence, I return to Blind Love, a novel born of visions, past lives, and the paranormal, guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

This post explores how Hans communicates with me through music.

This post unveils personal accounts and research of intimate relationships with spirits.

A journey through love, transformation, and spirit connection with Hans, my guide, told in 3 acts of shedding, searching, and surrendering.

Exploring spiritual ancestry, a past life, and the call of the land, this journey uncovers hidden truths as I prepare to leave Vermont.

A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and my spirit lover, Hans.

A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

An exploration of spirit marriage, mystical eroticism, and abstract art inspired by sex, longing, and spiritual connection.

There are a million ways to describe what it's like to be erotically touched by a spirit. And yet it befuddles me to describe the experience.