Before surgery, two dreams unfold around a living ghost, forest marathons, fallen trees, and a companionship that endures despite obstacles.

Reflections on learning German, mortality, longing, art, and unfinished ambitions.

Working on new writing for the blog surrounding communication, technology, longing, thresholds, and the strange ways people leave impressions of themselves behind, intentionally or otherwise.

Using expressive arts to work through current and past life trauma could support the healing process.

Multiple EVPs from Hans, including ASMR sounds.

After a dual diagnosis, I look back on intuition, loss, and a fractured friendship to understand how one painful reconnection may have given me more time.

During a ten-day drawing practice shaped by the myth of Eros and Psyche, I tried to draw Hans’s face for the first time in years. Each attempt forced a confrontation between devotion and verification. Making him visible risked shifting him from my unseen companion to the historical man he once was, revealing how the act of seeing can alter the bond itself.

This post explores how Hans communicates with me through music.

This post unveils personal accounts and research of intimate relationships with spirits.

A journey through love, transformation, and spirit connection with Hans, my guide, told in 3 acts of shedding, searching, and surrendering.

Exploring spiritual ancestry, a past life, and the call of the land, this journey uncovers hidden truths as I prepare to leave Vermont.

A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and my spirit lover, Hans.

I saw maples covered in vinyl tubing. "That must be their place," I said, oblivious of the fact that tapping could be a thing in Danby.

An intimate, visitation dream account with Hans and his WWII capture in barren fields.

A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

Creative work and partnership with subtle entities

An exploration of spirit marriage, mystical eroticism, and abstract art inspired by sex, longing, and spiritual connection.

The term sayfish metaphorically captures one of the challenges of being in an inter-dimensional marriage.

I wish I could say that my relationship with Hans is a perpetual "mystical love affair" as my drawing title indicates.