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"I write to discover what I know."
– Flannery O'Connor


Returning to Blind Love: Creation, Collapse, and the Call to Begin Again
After years of silence, I return to Blind Love—a novel born of visions, memory, and warning—guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

Lavavoth
Apr 239 min read


Music as the Lingua Franca of the Dead
This post explores how Hans communicates with me through music.

Lavavoth
Apr 215 min read


Union Beyond Boundaries: Love, Sex, and Spirituality with a Subtle Being
Exploring love, intimacy, and union with a spirit husband, this post unveils a profound, transcendent journey beyond the physical realm.

Lavavoth
Sep 30, 20249 min read


Into the Woods: A Three-Act Journey of Transformation and Spirit Connection
A journey through love, transformation, and spirit connection with Hans, my guide, told in 3 acts of shedding, searching, and surrendering.

Lavavoth
Sep 25, 20243 min read


Into the Northern Wilds: A Journey of Aging, Spirit, and Sacred Land
A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and a spirit lover, Hans.

Lavavoth
Jun 5, 20244 min read


How Music, Lifestyle, and Film Shaped My Early Experiences of Sensing Hans
A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Lavavoth
Feb 18, 20247 min read


"River Phoenix" Astral + Precognitive Visitation October 31, 1993
Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

Lavavoth
Feb 14, 202413 min read


Sensual Encounters with a Supernatural Being: Exploring the Phenomenon of Erotic Spirit Touch
There are a million ways to describe what it's like to be erotically touched by a spirit. And yet it befuddles me to describe the experience

Lavavoth
Nov 22, 20232 min read


Sayfish: The Challenges of Trying to Put into Words the Experiences of Spirit Marriage
The term sayfish metaphorically captures one of the challenges of being in an inter-dimensional marriage.

Lavavoth
Nov 8, 20231 min read


Occupied Flesh: 1940 - 1945 The Erotic Years as a Mirror to My Spirit Union
The Erotic Years, 1940 – 1945 is a controversial picture book depicting trysts between Nazi soldiers and French women in occupied France.

Lavavoth
Feb 24, 20172 min read


“It Was Great Fun!”: Antique Photo Collection, Hitler Youth Haircut & the Unbearable Thousand-Year Reign of Fascism
Connecting with the ghosts of soldiers—via artifacts, photographs, and past lives—to confront fascism, past and present.

Lavavoth
Dec 16, 20166 min read


From Prussia (and Beyond) with Love: Searching for Hans's Face in the Portraits of Others Leads to Unexpected Photo Collection
Collecting these photos was a spiritual and aesthetic quest to get as close to Hans's doppelgänger as possible.

Lavavoth
Dec 15, 20165 min read


Walking In: A Journey of Communion with Hans
Exploring the intimate and transformative experience of walk-ins with Hans, where trust, healing, & connection transcend the physical real.

Lavavoth
Aug 29, 20124 min read


Love Letters from WWII
These letters are intimate treasures between two people who give us a glimpse into their lives during an important time period.

Lavavoth
Aug 15, 20104 min read
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