Multiple EVPs from Hans, including ASMR sounds.

During a ten-day drawing practice shaped by the myth of Eros and Psyche, I tried to draw Hans’s face for the first time in years. Each attempt forced a confrontation between devotion and verification. Making him visible risked shifting him from my unseen companion to the historical man he once was, revealing how the act of seeing can alter the bond itself.

After years of silence, I return to Blind Love—a novel born of visions, memory, and warning—guided again by Hans as the world turns darker still.

This post explores how Hans communicates with me through music.

Exploring love, intimacy, and union with a spirit husband. This post unveils personal accounts and research of intimate interdimensional relationships.

A journey through love, transformation, and spirit connection with Hans, my guide, told in 3 acts of shedding, searching, and surrendering.

A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and my spirit lover, Hans.

A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

There are a million ways to describe what it's like to be erotically touched by a spirit. And yet it befuddles me to describe the experience.

The term sayfish metaphorically captures one of the challenges of being in an inter-dimensional marriage.

Resistant to the call, disdainful and intolerant of embarking on such a path, spirituality arrived like a sledgehammer.

The Erotic Years, 1940 – 1945 is a controversial picture book depicting trysts between Nazi soldiers and French women in occupied France.

Connecting with the ghosts of Nazi Germany via photographs to understand fascism then and now.

Collecting antique photographs was a spiritual and aesthetic quest to get as close to Hans's doppelgänger as possible.

Exploring the intimate and transformative experience of walk-ins with Hans, where trust, healing and connection transcend the physical realm.

Purchasing WWII love letters leads to thoughts of what we’ve lost and how no one writes letters anymore.